What do you tell.
What do you tell someone who cries to you she fell down and hurt herself in the bathroom. She points to her hurt elbow. She says she called her son to come take her to the hospital.
And you are oceans away. She is your your panda. Your ammama. What do you tell her when she says they left her and they are not taking care of her.
Care.
Oh how she cared and how she loved till her last breath. And , when she passed on 7 days later. She took with her my home. But with this feeling that she took away with her my home came the Knowing , the remembering , what my home looked like.. And it brought me back to life. Long gone memory. And the answer just flashed. It's not memory like you know it. It's in my senses, my being. It felt like her. I felt like her. Like me. What our cores were made of. Immense love.
What can I tell someone who always gave till the last breath. A saree my mom received after her death. And the support she gave me for my education over Marriage. I just graduated. And got laid off from a job I was to start full time that month in Jan. . I planned to visit her in December. She said it's okay! You will find another one. I Just graduated. I was to take care of her. I lost the race with time. With her , with my grandpa.
I didn't know but I blabbered evasively. Like distracting a child from a booboo. How do you care for a person with a booboo in her heart. Are we forgetting.
Love is not all we need but. Without love as the foundation, nothing stands. And when all hell let's lose. Love is all we need.
I didn't tell her I love you. Like I always did. I told her I'm here for you on other ocassions But in the past. But those days I needed her to be my ammamma. I don't remember saying it. I tried this new world thing. Empowering her. Pretending like the problem is small or will go away. Solutioning. I blabbered something distracting her. To try and make her think it's not a big deal focus on what we have. I think I said it's okay we don't need them. I wish I said I love you . I'm here . Like I used to. So she would not look for them.
She didn't need to be independent. She had me.
What do you tell someone who cries to you she fell down and hurt herself in the bathroom. She points to her hurt elbow. She says she called her son to come take her to the hospital.
And you are oceans away. She is your your panda. Your ammama. What do you tell her when she says they left her and they are not taking care of her.
Care.
Oh how she cared and how she loved till her last breath. And , when she passed on 7 days later. She took with her my home. But with this feeling that she took away with her my home came the Knowing , the remembering , what my home looked like.. And it brought me back to life. Long gone memory. And the answer just flashed. It's not memory like you know it. It's in my senses, my being. It felt like her. I felt like her. Like me. What our cores were made of. Immense love.
What can I tell someone who always gave till the last breath. A saree my mom received after her death. And the support she gave me for my education over Marriage. I just graduated. And got laid off from a job I was to start full time that month in Jan. . I planned to visit her in December. She said it's okay! You will find another one. I Just graduated. I was to take care of her. I lost the race with time. With her , with my grandpa.
I didn't know but I blabbered evasively. Like distracting a child from a booboo. How do you care for a person with a booboo in her heart. Are we forgetting.
Love is not all we need but. Without love as the foundation, nothing stands. And when all hell let's lose. Love is all we need.
I didn't tell her I love you. Like I always did. I told her I'm here for you on other ocassions But in the past. But those days I needed her to be my ammamma. I don't remember saying it. I tried this new world thing. Empowering her. Pretending like the problem is small or will go away. Solutioning. I blabbered something distracting her. To try and make her think it's not a big deal focus on what we have. I think I said it's okay we don't need them. I wish I said I love you . I'm here . Like I used to. So she would not look for them.
She didn't need to be independent. She had me.
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